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Sunday, October 23, 2011

The Race To Nowhere...

Here I am sitting in a grey chair...empty chair, impersonal and cold as the rest of this place...
Negative vibes surround me and try to penetrate the barrier,created by my strong will and desire to view the beauty of life...the unbreakable need to live fully and happily since tomorrow may not happen at all...and I succeed... I go to my shelter,grab my iPhone and start writing...I am happy ..I have come to understand and analyze more  than ever myself and the environment surrounding me!
The race to nowhere...in the most beautiful town...life has become so fast that people miss out on the most essential elements of  living..and drag themselves in this endless race to nowhere...I need to sit down and look up at the sky,see the clouds and trace them in my mind,the amazing shapes of the clouds...The wonders of this life are everywhere and this second will never return...Is it worth it to be torn by anger,despair or regrets? Is it worth it tormenting oneself with irresolvable issues and driving one's mind to the edge of insanity?
In our quest for perfection we have forgotten that we are not immortal and that the race against time is a race against ourselves...Our life is just a race to nowhere,a race to death whether we acknowledge it or not...The same way we were born out of nowhere,regardless of our will,is the same way we will die out to nowhere?
But life is so beautiful...The rays of the sun,the balancing trees dancing to the shadows of the light and to the music of the earth remind me that life is wonderful...
In my quest to overcome my anxieties and my insecurities,I have learned to see life,slow down and count the flowers in the morning...look at the chipmunks playing in my yard and welcome them in my life...
Life without passion,without emotions is empty and dull...As a mother,I have the duty to give my children the essence of my life experience (still very limited...)
Teaching them to be committed to hard work and integrity is a must but what is most important is giving them the time to see the amazing miracles of life surrounding them,whether it is a blossoming flower or a colorful bird,or the beautiful natural paintings of nature in the fall...A happy human being with emotions sculpting wrinkles in their face is a living wonder of life,a beam of light to others ...An unhappy, winning human being in the race to nowhere is just an unhappy human being!!!
Sometimes it is hard to draw a line and go in the other direction,against the race...But,it must be done..to live happily and die,one day, in peace....

Roula.

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